The Real Deal
Here I am, in sunny Hawaii, typing in my laptop, while my boyfriend is lounging beside me, sipping iced tea. Ah. This is the life!
Yeah, righty.
But the truth is, here I am, all alone in our house, all sweaty because the weather shifted gears again, while I am soooo far away from my boyfriend who’s currently in the O.R. right now, working.
I’d give anything to be with him right now and just have fun in the sun.
Funny, but life doesn’t work that way.It’s all about no pain, no gain. And it’s a reality I am currently receiving right now, albeit with a little difficulty.
Sometimes I just think about giving up, throwing in the towel… I think I did just that, after my short stint at a hospital at nearby Laguna (go figure). I had a hard time with the travel from here to there (travel time was at least an hour and a half), and the work there, I thought I was going to die of fatigue and stress. So what did I do? I quit. And now I’m regretting every bit of it. As I’ve mentioned, here I am, all alone in the house, doing nothing. It sucks real bad. I miss the hospital, I miss all the frenzied, panicked activity. It sure was tiring, but I learn a lot everyday from the work, I also learn a lot about myself. Sigh.
This just goes to prove that sometimes, you really have to do stupid things,make mistakes, in order to learn the true value of life. I’m somewhat ashamed of what I did, but at least I’m learning right now.Life has lot to offer, but it doesn’t come handed to you in a silver platter.Well, unless you’re born a Hilton, then you’ve got to learn how to sacrifice, and learn it well.
