Crossroads.
nah,i don’t mean the teeny-bopper britney spears movie(behold its panty-less star),but what i mean is the crossroads that you eventually have to face, what you want vs.what you need to do (or,to be blunt, fun vs.responsibilities).seems like a no-brainer,right?ENGK!!!!wrong answer!(sheesh, i really don’t know how to put into words what a buzzer sound should be).too bad,but that’s not the way life deals its cards.and too bad, i seem to be lost,caught in the middle of it.
i remember being lost when i was still a kid,about 4 or 5 yrs.old.my parents and i were in a mall,and i got distracted by all the fun stuff i was seeing everywhere– toys,other kids,kiddie rides,etc.i took my papa’s big hands to point to him a toy i liked-only to realize that it wasn’t my papa when i looked up at his face.i dropped the stranger’s hand and panicked,searching for my parents.eventually,my papa came rushing to me,and there’s nothing like the feeling of having him hold my hands again after being lost,it’s like being enveloped in warmth and security.how simple things are when you are kid,every bad feeling can be wiped away by your mother’s care or your father’s protectiveness.
right now,i badly wish to be enveloped in that same feeling,the feeling of being at home after being lost in a tiring journey.and i know i must tread carefully,and surely, on the road that i choose,the only road that will lead me home,which is the road of my responsibilities.as hard as it may seem,there are people that i treasure and love the most–they are the only ones who gives me the sense of permanence in a conflicting world…….
…..and the oscar goes to…hehe.i know it’s drama queen crap…maybe it’s all because of the caffeine or lack of sleep,and now it’s getting into my head,making me into ms.pauline-oprah-confessional-boo-boos-sulit.darn.
